I’ve been feeling depressed and lonely, lately, and social media has been letting me down, so my plan is to write something light and casual here. It’s probably going to be short because I have to get ready for ballet in about an hour.
I went to Saturday morning ballet for the past two weeks because my Thursday class was canceled. The Saturday morning class is fun because it’s much bigger and it’s taught by a grand old dame with an expressive speaking style. Too bad I can’t understand a word she says.
Her combinations flow a little better, too. I guess that’s what you learn after teaching for decades (probably). The other thing you get from teaching for decades is a lack of desire to demonstrate the combinations, so you only explain them instead, and the one person in the class who can’t understand your Japanese has no clue what’s going on.
Anyway, I like the Saturday morning class, but I also like my Thursday class. This teacher is young, is still performing, and demonstrates everything all out, so that’s impressive.
She uses a combination of simple Japanese and French ballet terms, so I almost always know what’s going on. When it’s clear I’m not getting something, she says it in her nearly perfect English. Although, one time, she very adorably kept referring to my toes as my fingers (it’s the same word in Japanese).
The other thing I like about going to dance on Thursday is that after class, I feel like I’m nearly done for the week. There’s no Saturday obligation to worry about.
My arms are sore today because, on Tuesday, I discovered Caroline Girvan, a fitness Youtuber with really high-quality at-home workout videos. They are the kind of videos you’d expect to pay for. I’ve been looking for something like this for a long time.
I haven’t found another fitness Youtuber that doesn’t conflate beauty and health. Most of the time, it’s not that big of a deal, exercise is exercise, except that they design their workouts around creating a certain aesthetic (mostly growing your butt and slimming everything else).
I’m in my 40s. I’m over the size of my booty. I want a well-balanced workout. My goals are having things like strong bones, so I can fall over and not break anything, and being strong in general, so I don’t fall over in the first place. I don’t want any muscle imbalances that contribute to pain, so I can maintain my mobility and freedom of movement. I want to be able to use and enjoy my body for as long as possible.
As far as I’ve seen, Caroline Girvan has only mentioned weight loss once as a personal goal someone might (in theory) have in one pep-talk-type video. It wasn’t in an exercise video. As a matter of fact, she hardly speaks, at all, in her exercise videos. There is no unnecessary blabbing. I didn’t think that mattered much, but while doing a workout where she didn’t say a word, I was able to just get into the zone and concentrate on the exercise.
In one Q&A video, someone asked her if she competed in bikini competitions. Her response was that she was not interested in dietary restrictions, so no.
I was so happy and relieved to finally find a fitness guru who actually prioritizes fitness over beauty. Not only that, but she actually understands that fitness and beauty are not the same things. I’m so tired of hearing people saying that they’re doing certain things (usually severe calorie restriction) for their “health,” when it’s very clear that they’re doing them for aesthetics.
Ok, I thought I’d be able to say more today, but I stopped to watch a little bit of Caroline’s Q&A video again, so I’m out of time.