How to Develop a Passion for Compassion

When I decided that I was going to write about compassion, my first thought was that I couldn’t believe that I had allowed my blog exist this long without writing about compassion.  My second thought was that I have to get this entry right because compassion is such an important topic.  That’s when I launched into my spiral of self-doubt and second guessing myself to the point of frozen deer-in-headlights-inaction. Generally speaking, I had no compassion for myself.

I taught my Reiki Level 1 class last weekend.  Again, the difficultly we all have with having compassion for ourselves was demonstrated for me.  This is a serious problem.  I’m sure that you’ve heard that old adage, “You need to love yourself before you can love someone else.”  The same goes for compassion and this is true for a couple of reasons.

The first: Without compassion for ourselves, we abuse ourselves to the point of exhaustion with negative self-talk and judgment.  We have learned to navigate this world by teaching ourselves about what not to do in any given situation.  When we do the thing we’ve told ourselves not to do, we come down hard on ourselves.  This is a form of self-preservation, but left unchecked it can easily become a form of self-destruction.  When we exhaust ourselves like this, we have nothing left to give to anyone else.

The second is this yummy¹ quote that I found in The Buddha’s Satori: “Compassion means the elevation of all that exists, including the grass, stones, animals, humans, to buddhahood, to the state of emancipation.”²  The important word here is “all.”  That means everyone.  In case you didn’t get the picture, he included rocks and plants, too.  “All” does not mean “everyone except you.”  The second important word here is “emancipation.”  This implies that no one is free (from suffering) until everyone is free (from suffering).  This is a basic Buddhist idea.  We are all one entity,³ and if any part of that entity is suffering, then we are all suffering.  If you don’t take care of yourself, you’re not just letting yourself down, but you’re letting all of us down.

Hopefully, you’re now sold on the idea that it is important that you have compassion for yourself.  Even so, I know that having an intellectual understanding of something and feeling that thing in your bones is not the same thing.  This is the reason that your life has not been transformed, yet, despite the number of uplifting bumper stickers you have read, lately.

Cultivating long-term compassion for oneself is a difficult and complex issue.  Often, this requires the healing of many, many layers of wounds.  However, that doesn’t mean you can’t have one magical moment of true compassion for yourself.  Having this type of experience will move you much further along the path of self-compassion because you’ll finally see what it looks like.

I can’t tell you how to manufacture this moment, but I can tell you what it contains.  It contains the third person perspective.  This means that you stop experiencing the world as you, and you start experiencing the world as your observer.  This is something that happens naturally with enough meditation, and it is not as outlandish as it sounds.  Most of us have people in our lives that we love unconditionally, flaws and all—friends, family members, pets, etc.  If you can shift your perspective enough to see yourself in the same way that you see them, you will start getting glimpses of what it is like to truly have compassion for yourself.  This is not about self-indulgence.  It’s a balanced mixture that includes love, understanding and acceptance, which opens the door to emancipation—and truly thrive.  This is a balance that only you know because that scale is internal.

I have only fully experienced this while in a meditative state, but those glimpses have informed all of the subsequent conversations I have had with myself.

If getting into a meditative state isn’t for you, you can start by talking to yourself in the way that would be the most soothing to you.  You know yourself well enough, so you know what would make you feel good.  Even if it sounds cheesy, canned and forced, no one else is going to hear it, so why not?

Give it a shot, folks, and don’t be afraid to comment on how it goes!

¹I’m using this word because Rita Fierro taught me how to use this in a non-food context, and I like it.
² Motoyama, H. (n.d.). Buddha’s Satori (1ST edition.). CIHS Press. Page 52.
³ My nit-picky Buddhist scholar boyfriend wants you all to know: “It’s worth at least footnoting that this ‘all one entity’ can be misconstrued. It would be more accurate, in many Buddhist contexts, to say that phenomena are connected in a way where all phenomena can be seen in any one particular phenomenon—yourself, for example—and that in all phenomena any one particular phenomenon (eg, yourself) can be seen. This is the notion that One is All and All is One, which can be seen in lots of Mahayana Buddhist traditions. Therefore, there is a sense in which we are all one entity, but a sense in which we are all separate but interdependent entities.”

Locating and Dissolving Energy Blockages

Last week, I talked about self-care systems in the context of psychology. This week, I’m going to talk about them in the context of subtle energy. In terms of energy, anything that registers emotionally also shows up in our energetic bodies.

You can test this theory out. Sit quietly for a minute and think about about where in your body you feel anger, grief, love, happiness and any other potent and clearly defined emotion. These physical sensations are considered to be a part of your energetic framework.

An energetic blockage works in the same way a scab works on the skin. It forms as a result of some trauma in order to protect us from further damage. Unlike scabs, they don’t always leave once they have outlived their usefulness. These blockages show up in our psychologies as self-care systems, and as stagnant energy in our bodies. This stagnant energy eventually leads to muscle tension or a physical weakness in that area.

If you read last week’s entry, you probably have somewhat of an idea of your self-care systems. Through energy work, you can start to locate and dissolve them. Even if you don’t believe in subtle energy, these exercises can be useful merely as a visualization techniques.

This is a thing that takes practice, but it will reveal itself to you with consistent effort.

Locating Your Own Energy Blockages

  1. Find a quiet place where you can sit undisturbed for several minutes.
  2. Concentrate on your breath until you reach a relaxed state.
  3. Stay alert and become aware of your bodily sensations.
  4. Think about a situation where you personally feel stuck.
  5. Try to turn off the stream of thoughts surrounding that situation; such as, “X, Y and Z are stopping me from doing this,” and tune into your emotions about the situation.
  6. Locate the places where those emotions seem to be residing in your body.
  7. Note the sight, sound, texture or other visceral aspects of these emotions.

Clearing Energy Blockages

Now that you have located your blockages, you can try to clear them. I know you’re thinking, “What? No way!”

I’m here to tell you: Way.

When it comes to energy healing, you are your own best healer.

In many cases, especially if you are new to your subtle energy body, merely acknowledging your emotions will be enough. They will dissipate as soon as you recognize them. The tricky thing here is that you can’t force them to dissipate. Trying to force an emotion to dissipate can cause it to repress itself and move to a place where you can’t consciously access it. Remember, blockages were installed to protect you. They’re programmed to stay in place and protect you forever, even if it’s long after you no longer need protecting.

Instead of forcing an emotion to dissipate, get to know it, learn to accept it, and even love it (it was created to protect you, after all), breath through it, stay focused on it, and something will change.

When you recall your situation, chances are that you are going to be tempted to get stuck on the story of it.  You’ll repeat incidents over and over to yourself and maybe even start daydreaming about how those incidents could have turned out better.  If this happens, it is not a big deal, but recognize that you’re doing a different exercise at the moment and give yourself the space for it.

Once you’ve located your blockages, and you’ve gotten familiar with them, you can try different approaches to working them out:

  1. If you feel the need to move around and mull it over while you’re doing other things, you can do that, too. I often find that while doing light housework, I can simultaneously try to work through blockages. Try to avoid anything that is too stimulating or distracting.
  2. If you are very visual, sometimes it helps to draw while accessing those feelings. Allow yourself free reign on the paper, but stay focused on your feelings.
  3. If you are musical, but having trouble really getting in touch with your emotion, think of a song that exemplifies that feeling. Sing the song yourself, put it on and sing along with the song, or just listen to it.  Allow that to help you get in touch with your emotions. If you’re more of a physical person, try dancing to it (even if it is really sad and slow).
  4. If you are most comfortable with words, try writing about your feelings. Try not to get too sucked into writing about the analytical details of the situation. Focus on your feelings.
  5. If there is something else that you think that may work for you; such as a long walk alone, then do that.

If you’ve reached the point of activity where you can no longer feel your body, then you have gone too far. You can’t locate your blockages if you can’t feel your body.If you find your mind wandering or you keep getting sucked into the story of the situation, recognize that it’s a normal response, and refocus on your emotions.  If you really can’t give up the story, promise yourself that after you’re done with your energy exercise, you will allow yourself time to think about your story.

Give this process time. It may help to put yourself on a schedule where you spend 20 minutes on it a few times a week. If you do this a lot, then you’re going to relieve a lot of blockages. Once these blockages are gone, the results will manifest in your life. They may not necessarily manifest in your life in the ways that you expect, but there will be changes.

Eventually, you’re going to be left with only the more stubborn-hard-to-break blockages. By this time, you’ll be an old pro, and you will have a better idea of how to deal with them. However, there is no end to healing. Even if you get to a point where you recognize that your remaining blockages are too stuck for you to handle on your own, don’t discount the new blockages that will continually emerge merely from the daily grind of living. The earlier you catch them, the easier it is to release them.

Still need help?  Come see me, and I will work on your blockages with you.

In a later post I will talk about how to address those stubborn-hard-to-break blockages.

Self-Care Systems – An Introduction

Have you ever heard of self-care systems? Most people who work in subtle energy have some familiarity with self-care systems because in our experience, they manifest themselves as energetic blockages. In psychology, these are called “self-sabotage,” “limiting beliefs, “conflicting parts,” and “self-care systems.”

According to Daniella Sief’s article in Psychological Perspectives: A Quarterly Journal of Jungian Thought, “The psyche’s internal response to trauma sets up a ‘self-care system’ designed to ensure the person’s survival, but that this defensive system ultimately re-traumatizes the person from within, cutting off life-saving attachments to others and eclipsing all possibilities of true-self living in the real world.”¹

Imagine a little girl wandering near a pool. Her mother sees her, and out of fear, screams at her.

After that, the little girl avoids going near any pool again. That little girl has set up a “self-care system.”

It’s like installing a piece of software on your computer that prevents one particular event from ever happening.

Her mother told her that water is dangerous, and so she automatically installed a behavior to protect herself. Now imagine the little girl as an adult woman. Times have changed, she has learned to swim, and the thing that was dangerous in the past is not as dangerous in the present.

The little girl who once wisely protected herself from drowning in pools is now a grown woman who feels anxious swimming, and never feels totally comfortable on a boat. She even turns down opportunities that will put her near water because of the associated anxiety. We leave self-care systems in place long after they have outlived their usefulness.

This is a part of life. Things happen. We create self-care systems out of love for ourselves and the instinct to survive. They are like over-protective parents that follow us around and don’t want us to do anything that might potentially cause us pain or discomfort.

Maybe we fear public speaking because we’ve been embarrassed in front of a crowd. Maybe we fear commitment because we over-committed ourselves once, and that caused problems. We don’t even have to suffer the consequences ourselves. Merely seeing someone else suffer is enough to make us modify our behavior. As a result, we truncate our lives in unnecessary ways, and we suffer from anxiety.

It’s much easier to see self-care systems in other people than it is to see it in ourselves. Part of the self-care system is to run underneath your personal radar, so you don’t dislodge it and expose yourself to danger. If you are not sure how to identify a self-care system, try looking at situations that seem stuck, or think in terms of it’s other name—self-sabotage.

Think about the people in your life who come to you with the same complaints over and over, yet, nothing seems to change. Maybe one friend doesn’t get along with his spouse, maybe another hates her job, another has a never-ending string of failed relationships, and another has a phobia or habit that he can’t conquer.

They try to fix their situations, but they don’t make any progress. They repeatedly use the same few approaches, and they continually fail.

To identify your own self-care systems, start looking for patterns. It doesn’t have to be a big dramatic thing, like hating your spouse, your job or your life. It can be a simple thing, like weight loss or not getting enough recognition at work.

If there is an area where you have been trying to make progress, but you feel like you are spinning your wheels, then chances are that this is the result of a self-care system. A good way to identify these things is first to identify the place where you are stuck (that’s the easy part), then start to journal, or talk it out with yourself (yes, you can talk to yourself, I won’t tell!).

How do those situations make you feel? How do you feel about the risks involved with making a real change? Where did that start? It may help to think about the advantages of keeping your patterns and the disadvantages of changing them. This will help you be completely honest with yourself and drill down to your self-care system.

Next week, I will be talking about self-care systems in terms of energy blockages, and I will post some subtle energy exercises to help you identify them and remove them. It’s going to be good, so stay tuned!

¹Sieff, Daniella. (2008). Unlocking the Secrets of the Wounded Psyche: Interview with Donald Kalsched. Psychological Perspectives: A Quarterly Journal of Jungian Thought. 51:2, 190-207.

Stress: The Wellness Killer?

At the bottom of this post is a Ted Talk given by Kelly McGonigal.

In the first half, McGonigal talks about a study that was done on stress. This study found a correlation between stress related death and the belief that stress is bad for you. The conclusion is that stress itself is not unhealthy. It is the belief that stress is unhealthy that is unhealthy. People who believed stress is helpful did not suffer from stress related death.

McGonigal then goes on to tell us about another study that showed that training people to believe that stress is helpful made it possible for those people to cope with stress better and this improved their survival rate. While she offers some compelling evidence and some amazing solutions, I’d like to discuss stress from another angle.

I don’t know about you, but no one needed to tell me that stress is unhealthy. Long before I had heard the words “stress” and “anxiety” I knew that how I felt in certain situations was not healthy. I didn’t need to hear, “the thing you are experiencing is stress and it’s a bad for you.” I already knew.

Maybe some people believe stress is unhealthy is because that their life experience has taught them that stress is unhealthy for them. Likewise, maybe some people believe that stress is helpful because it has been helpful for them. Like I mentioned in a previous post, one of the problems with clinical studies is that they often don’t account for individual differences. While generalizations can be helpful, when we’re trying to figure out how to navigate this (stressful) world, generalizations can really put some limiting beliefs on us as individuals.

If you can’t start with generalizations, then where can you start?

The conglomeration that makes up you is the most powerful problem solving entity that human kind has ever seen. You are at the helm of something that is designed to solve problems—not just one or two kinds problems either, all kinds of problems.

Think about it this way: When your body needs food, it tells you. When your brain needs sleep, it tells you. When you very quickly need to get out of the way of a speeding vehicle, that happens before you’ve even realized what has happened. When your body needs to stop and make repairs, it gives you pain to force you to stop and make repairs. I’m venturing to guess that when you in a situation that is causing you unhealthy stress, you have a mechanism that tells you that, too.  After all, not every situation can be solved by being able to run faster, yell louder or think on your feet.  When that happens, what do you do with all of that extra ability?  Try to shut it down?  Ignore it?  Say to yourself, “Stress is really awesome because even though I’m standing in this long-ass line at the bank, I am totally prepared for a robbery.”

I’m venturing to guess that you can identify the times in your life when you have experienced stress in a good way, too. That is the kind of stressful situation where your stress can be put to use.  It helps you rise to a challenge. It helps you find your loud voice when you need to yell. It helps you run faster when you’re getting out of the way of that speeding vehicle. It helps you stay up all night and get a report done that is due the next morning.

Does it make sense to put all stress into one box labeled “healthy” or “unhealthy?”

Here’s an analogy: Imagine that the major stressor in your life (be it your job or a relationship) is a hot stove and the stress you feel is the pain of leaving your hand on the surface of that hot stove.

You notice the searing pain, but you also notice that everyone else is holding their hand to the surface of the stove, too. As a matter of fact, everyone is telling you that hot stoves are great, and there’s nothing better than having your hand burnt by a hot stove. It may suck now, but the rewards in the future will be amazing! Stick with it and like everyone else, you’ll get the rewards that you are due. You desperately want to pull your hand away, but now you’re committed to this stove thing, and you’re worried about what people will think if you stop. You start injecting a numbing agent into your red, blistered, blackened flesh and start training yourself to believe that the pain is a good thing. As a matter of fact, you and all of the other stove people have developed a nightly ritual of injecting a numbing agent into your hands so you can get through the next day.

You probably get the picture. Sure, convincing yourself that the pain is good for you is great for your heart health, but what about your hand health? What about that mechanism that is telling you that you are in a bad situation and that you need to get out of it?

You can’t necessarily use the behavior of others as a guide. In my experience, some people have hands that are built for hot stove tops and some people don’t. For example, I used to work a regular 9-5 job and most of my coworkers were pretty satisfied with that, but I wasn’t.  It doesn’t make sense to hold every person to the same standard.  I guess we can say one person’s hot stove is another person’s pleasantly warm pillow.

One of the other things that I have noticed about this analogy is that causing yourself suffering in order to gain some promised reward in the future is an incredible act of faith. If we must commit daily acts of faith, we probably want to be really careful about exactly where we choose to put that faith.

McGonigal’s talk is certainly very helpful, and it’s a great reminder that our stress mechanism is designed to help us. However, stress doesn’t happen in a vacuum. It’s usually caused by some circumstance, and feeling bad is designed to help us, too.

It’s up to us to recognize our personal patterns of stress. Where do you easily rise to the occasion and where do you usually shut-down and flounder?  In which situations does it make sense to think of stress as helping you, and in which situations does it make sense to use that stress to move yourself into a situation in which you’ll blossom?  You know, that place where your stress becomes your joy.

If you have a hot stove in your life, figure out how you can get your hand off of it.

Let’s Get Sciencey: Cancer Studies and the Practitioners Involved

If you have ever been on the search for a Reiki practitioner or any subtle energy practitioner, you have probably asked yourself whether it matters who you get. Or, maybe you’ve had a particularly good or particularly bad healing experience and you wondered whether or not it had anything to do with the practitioner. I’ll try to shed some light on that question by talking about two studies that were done on two different subtle energy healing practices and cancer.

Subtle energy healing techniques have been around for centuries, but it has only been recently that we have applied the standard research and clinical study models to them. Unfortunately, there are several problems with applying the conventional study models to non-conventional treatments. As a matter of fact, there are so many problems and those problems run so deep that I can only talk about one at a time.

This time, I’ll talk about the individuality of the practitioner. I chose these two studies because they’re both compelling and I think that when we compare them to one another, they say something about practitioners.

In most conventional study design, the focus is on the treatment, not the administrator of the treatment. They often control for this by not allowing the administrator to know whether he is giving someone the real deal or a placebo. When administering a subtle energy technique, that’s kind of impossible. Also, given that each individual practitioner is an individual, she brings her own particular set of talents, knowledge and history to the table every time she practices. Every person is unique and every situation is unique.

The Studies

The first one is on the grizzly side and definitely not for animal lovers, but it turned up some interesting data.

William Bengston is a subtle energy practitioner who doesn’t believe in subtle energy healing, or at least he says he didn’t until he discovered that his techniques could cure cancer. He tried for decades to get his data studied by conventional medicine, but no one would touch it. He eventually gave up and went back to his regular job as a professor of sociology.

Bengston did the same study a few times, tweaking it each time to improve the design. The details of that were chronicled in his book, The Energy Cure. You can read the last study that he did by clicking on the following title (warning: this study was conducted on mice and there are some photos of mice that had been injected with cancer cells): The Effect of the “Laying On of Hands” on Transplanted Breast Cancer in Mice.¹”

To summarize: Bengston trained skeptics and non-believers in his subtle energy technique and asked them to try to cure the mice of cancer. One of the problems that he found with study design is that the control mice kept getting healed, too (despite being injected with double-doses of cancer). Because of this, he started sending a set of control mice off-site to an undisclosed location.

These were the results of his last experiment: 29 out of 33 “experimental” mice remitted (the mice getting intentional treatments), 18 out of 26 on-site control mice remitted (presumably unintentionally healed because the volunteers were aware of the location of the control mice and visited them sometimes). Zero out of 8 off-site control mice remitted and ended up dying in a way that is considered “normal” for someone who has been injected with cancer cells. As you can tell, Bengston was cut off before he could conduct larger scale and more serious studies. According to his book, there was no support and no money to continue.

The second study is a little more mundane, but it also turned up compelling data. It’s called The Effect of Therapeutic Touch on Pain and Fatigue of Cancer Patients Undergoing Chemotherapy.

This study was for a subtle energy technique called Therapeutic Touch. From what I can tell, TT is less popular than Reiki, but it was apparently big in the 1980s. The reason I like this particular study is because it contained 90 participants, making it much bigger than most studies done on subtle energy healing.

There is nothing scary or grizzly about this study, except that all 90 people were cancer sufferers. It was also oddly controlled—they used the same practitioner for both the “real” treatment and the “placebo” treatment, demonstrating that she was probably pretty experienced and knew what she was doing or was at least confident in her ability to control the technique herself. The odd part was that she was right because the placebo group did not do as well as the group that received the real treatment.  As usual, the control group got the worst results.

No one was cured of cancer, or at least, if anyone was cured of cancer, it wasn’t mentioned in the study because this study wasn’t about that. They used a couple of different measures for the pain and fatigue that is associated with conventional chemotherapy treatments.

According to study results:

“Pain scores of the experimental group were reduced compared to placebo and control groups’ pain scores significantly.²”


“Fatigue scores of the experimental group were reduced compared to placebo and control groups’ fatigue scores significantly.²”

I can’t really quote much more than that because the results contain lots of complex info with charts and graphs. It would be much easier for you to click the link above and look at the study yourself. It will tell you how they set up the placebo, the control groups and the measurements that were done.

The Practitioner

Given the results and slight background on these studies, it doesn’t seem like much of a stretch to say that the practitioner matters.  In the first study, the newly-trained practitioners unintentionally caused a healing response in the control group by merely being in proximity of them, or in some cases, by just being aware of the location of the control group.  In the other, the practitioner could set up the exact same atmosphere and situation with the placebo group and give them a placebo.

Right now, in most studies that are done on subtle energy practices, the practitioner is not even identified (let alone his/her experience or level of training).  When studies are designed, they try to control for everything except the treatment itself.  This makes sense when we’re studying something like a drug.  One pill-hand-out-person is pretty much the same as the next one.  When we’re studying something like a subtle energy technique, we don’t know enough about it to say whether one practitioner is the same as the next one, but most studies still use the old it-doesn’t-matter-who-it-is design.

As a practitioner myself, I have found that every healing session is unique to itself. As we pass through time, we are constantly changing. A healing session is the result of the intersection of who the practitioner is at the time, who you are at the time, and the new entity that is created by the healing. Does it matter who you get? I say yes, but with one huge caveat: There isn’t enough information out there for anyone else to tell you who the best practitioner is for you. If you are seeking healing, you are the most important component of that process, so find a practitioner that works for you.

In the future I hope to blog about studies that measured the autonomic nervous system, anxiety and depression while receiving subtle energy treatments, so keep in touch!

¹Bengston, W., & Krinsley, D. (2000). The Effect of the “Laying On of Hands” on Transplanted Breast Cancer in Mice. Journal of Scientific Exploration, 14(3), 353-364.
²Aghabati, N., Mohammadi, E., & Pour Esmaiel, Z. (2010). The Effect of Therapeutic Touch on Pain and Fatigue of Cancer Patients Undergoing Chemotherapy. Evidence-Based Complementary and Alternative Medicine, 7(3), 375–381. doi:10.1093/ecam/nen006


Happy Herbivore Visits Mindful Mending!

If you are not familiar with Lindsay Nixon of Happy Herbivore, it’s time to become familiar with her.

Mindful Mending has been given the privilege of being a stop on her blog tour while she promotes her latest book, Happy Herbivore Light & Lean.  She answered a few questions and provided me with a recipe from her new book.  She is not just a popular vegan cookbook author or even a popular vegetarian cookbook author, she’s a popular cookbook author period.

I can’t express how excited I am about this!  This is a dream come true for me.  I have been following her blog since the very beginning—which is the reason that I seem to have a creepy amount of knowledge about her life.  I was also allowed to choose among a handful of recipe’s to feature here.  I chose a recipe called Meatloaf Bites because I think it epitomizes a Happy Herbivore recipe.  It only has a few ingredients, none of which are obscure or crazy expensive, and it’s super fast and easy.  I have not tried this recipe, yet, but if history teaches us anything, it will be delicious.  Scroll down for my questions, her answers, and the recipe!  YAY!

MINDFUL MENDING: You had a serious health scare several years ago which was a turning point for you. How do you define health now? What are your current health goals?

HAPPY HERBIVORE: I’ve found that in general, society tends to define health as an absence of something – an absence of sickness. You’re healthy if you don’t have XYZ health problems. I don’t care for that way of thinking. I define health in terms of abundance. Health isn’t just an absence of something, it’s also about what you’re adding. Health for me is about thriving and feeling good.

My goals at this point are to continue to live well and thrive. I think our health is a journey and one that never really ends. We can continue to improve. Make still another tiny tweak to our diet and lifestyle. Each day I strive to be better than I was the day before.

MINDFUL MENDING: Your business helps people live better lives and that wasn’t accidental. Do you have any spiritual beliefs or practices that influence the way you do business?

HAPPY HERBIVORE: I’ve always wanted to help people. It’s why I went to law school. I thought I could help people if I was a lawyer, and to be fair I did help my clients, but it just wasn’t enough for me. I wasn’t satisfied. Wanting to help others has always been my ultimate passion. I think it must be similar to what many doctors feel when they explain why they choose a career in medicine. They had this deep desire to be healers.

MINDFUL MENDING: To me, one of the running themes of your blog is one of forgiveness. For example, you often use the phrase, “progress, not perfection,” to emphasize the benefit that we all receive when we build each other up instead of tear each other down. Can you talk more about that?

HAPPY HERBIVORE: I can’t believe I’m about to quote a Will Ferrell movie, but, in one of his movies, the character is always saying “you’re first or you’re last,” and I think that statement sums up the pressure society puts on us. I think a lot of us feel like we have to be perfect. That if we’re not perfect, then it doesn’t even matter. We feel it’s 100 percent or 0… like all the numbers… 5…23..56…92… between 0-100 don’t matter. I want to change that—rage against that mentality. Progress matters more than perfection. I’m not sure perfection really exists anyway because there is always room for improvement. 🙂

MINDFUL MENDING: You are a trailblazer, not just for plant-based eaters, but for entrepreneurial women. During the tough early days of your business, what kept you going?

HAPPY HERBIVORE: Aww thank you! What I tell my students (I’m teaching a business class on entrepreneurship right now through is that you have to have a clear motivation. Maybe it’s monetary, maybe it’s spiritual, maybe it’s a passion in your heart, maybe it’s achieving a certain lifestyle you want—but whatever it is, you have to keep it in your line of sight. It’s what will get you through the hard times and the hard days (which you will have), and it’ll be there to comfort you when you make hard calls. I’ve always had this overriding passion and desire to help people, and that kept me going. Even when it was hard and my situation felt hopeless, I would remember why I started in the first place. I would tell myself (I still tell myself) that every day is another day I get to help someone, no matter what else that day brings (good or bad). For me, it’s about the work. Doing good work I believe in.

A million thanks to Lindsay Nixon for having me on the blog tour and for putting so much thought into her answers to my questions.  I would also like to thank Lindsay M, her marketing person, for setting this all up.  Now for the recipe:

Meatloaf Bites
Makes 8
Gluten-free, Quick, Budget


One afternoon I grabbed what I thought was corn from the freezer but later realized it was mixed vegetables. Once they thawed on the counter I knew they weren’t going back in, so I looked for a new, inventive way to use them. A can of kidney beans started calling, and before I knew it I had a vegetable-filled meatloaf in the oven. Since this meatloaf is baked in a muffin tin (great for serving sizes and portion control), I call it meatloaf “bites” and, yes, leftovers are great as a burger!

1 15-oz can kidney beans, drained and rinsed
1 tbsp onion powder
1 tbsp garlic powder
1 tbsp Italian seasoning
1 tbsp chili powder (add another 1 tsp if you like it spicy)
3 tbsp ketchup
2 tbsp mustard
1 tbsp Vegan Worcestershire Sauce (recipe in full cookbook)
1 c frozen mixed vegetables, thawed
6 tbsp instant oats

Preheat oven to 350˚F. Line a muffin tin with paper liners or use nonstick. Mash beans in a bowl with fork or potato masher until well mashed. Add remaining ingredients, except oats, and stir to combine.

Stir in oats. Spoon into muffin tin and pack down. Bake for 20 minutes until crisp on the outside and fairly firm to the touch (firms a bit as it cools). Serve with ketchup, Quick Gravy (pg. 188), etc.

Per Bite
Calories . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 101
Fat. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 1.7g
Carbs . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 16.9g
Fiber. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .6.5g
Sugars. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 3g
Protein. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .5.8g
WW Points. . . . . . . . . . . . . . 2

The Power of Commitment

Lately, I have been learning the same lesson over and over again, and it’s about the power of commitment.  By “commitment” I mean this: making something a true priority in your life.  You probably already know what that looks like and it likely has something to do with food, shelter, and your job.

As for the “power” part, I can only explain by telling you some stories:

Do you want to know how I got into healing?

I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. I was lethargic and exhausted all of the time. I was still doing a lot, but I had no enthusiasm for it.  I was doing things because they seemed like the right thing to do, they had worked in the past, and because everyone else believes that’s the right way to live.  The ways I spent my time didn’t recharge me; they only depleted me. I believe that everyone has a natural glow and charisma about them, and mine had been snuffed out.

I needed a turning point, so I made one. At that time, I had been a Reiki channel for a few years already. I was pretty adept at healing, but I wasn’t totally committed to it. Then, like I said, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I finally reached a point where I said I wasn’t going to mess around, anymore. I was going to get better, for real. Up until that day, it had been my habit to only heal myself just enough to keep myself going; until I felt ‘good enough.’

My new commitment said that I would heal myself every day for a month—no excuses. I would go beyond ‘good enough,’ and see what was there.  I put my healing on the priority level of eating daily (and I never pass up a meal). It didn’t matter if there were dishes to be done or if I’d rather watch TV. It didn’t matter if I felt good enough. There was no more ‘good enough,’ there was, ‘can I feel better?’ (the answer was always, ‘yes’).

As we’ve previously established, healing can mean a lot of things.  For me, personally, this meant a lot of things, too. Some of them were unique to me, as I imagine most of your healing rituals would be unique to you. Some of them were ordinary, like getting enough sleep, eating right, finding joy, having a creative outlet, etc. A lot of it was Reiki. Every day, I performed a mental scan on myself. I would sit down in a quiet place and ask myself what I needed to get better—to thrive! At first, the answers were fuzzy, but as I continued to practice, the answers got clearer.

When that month ended, I knew that I needed to continue because by that time I had come to the realization that healing never ends.

While the ability to heal is a powerful force, it needed my commitment to complete its task. And, it completed its task in unimaginable ways that totally changed my life for the better.

Here’s another story about commitment:

As you may have noticed, I am offering a free Reiki class. I thought I had the ingenious idea of having a class that accommodated the schedules of everyone who wanted to be in it. I was feeling all self-satisfied as I got my students and set up my doodle. It wasn’t long before I realized why no one ever schedules classes this way. My ingenious idea was a bust, so I had to switch gears. At first, I didn’t want to switch gears. Even after it became clear that it was physically impossible to accommodate all of our schedules, I still fought it. I still tried. I grasped at straws trying to make it work, and then I collapsed in frustration and exhaustion.

Shortly after my collapse, I realized that my desire to get the students first, and then accommodate their schedules, rather than set a date first, and then get people who can make that date was a way for me to not be fully committed to the class and teaching Reiki. It was a way to play it safe and not stick my neck out. I could hand-pick my students and only have the students I wanted. That is not committing to teaching Reiki, that’s committing to having a fun time with people that I like. I’m not saying that there is anything wrong with committing to a fun time with people that I like, but that is not the goal of teaching this class.

Upon this realization, I immediately committed to the dates of a weekend in my head.  I needed to confirm the dates with my Reiki teacher, but I wasn’t going to confirm those dates with anyone else.  If people could attend, then great.  If not, I would find people who could come and live with the class with which I was dealt.  Within seconds of me confirming those dates with my Reiki teacher (and telling her about my newly established commitment), emails started popping up on my screen.  I didn’t look at them until after I was off the phone, but when I did, I saw that the scheduling impossibilities had lifted, and the schedule fell into place.  The weekend that I had already chosen in my head surfaced as the weekend that would work for everyone.

I have learned this lesson about commitment several times now, and I am beginning to realize that the commitments we make determine the overall direction of our lives.  It sounds so simple, but really it isn’t.

We tend to think of non-commitment as a way to go with the flow, keep our options open and being available for new opportunities. The problem is that without commitment any new opportunity that comes along has no legs to bring it forth into reality.

When we don’t consciously commit to something, we are unconsciously committing to something else.

How so? When we don’t choose our commitments, then we have no place to direct our thoughts, focus, and intentions. We hand all our power over to whatever mood we’re feeling that day, the weather, or the momentum of the past. By not fully committing to healing, I was actually committing to keeping myself in a rut.

So, obviously, when we commit, we must commit wisely. When I made the commitment to accommodate the schedules of all of my students, I was committing myself to baby-stepping, and not taking the leap that I needed to make.

Not everything in our lives can be on the priority level of do-or-die, but that doesn’t mean that you have to give everything else up, either. For example, I love dance. I have been taking weekly dance classes for years now. I have even performed a dance routine in front of an audience, but I don’t prioritize dance the same way I prioritize work, school, or healing. I love my dance school, I love my dance teachers. I also love keeping on the priority level of: It’s there for me to enjoy when I can, but I don’t sweat it when I can’t.

When you consider where you have placed your commitments, think about what dominates most of your thoughts.  Think about most of your daily, habitual actions and where they are leading you.  If you have a lot of negative self-talk, please STOP THAT IMMEDIATELY because every word of that is a commitment to keeping yourself down.  I am not saying that you need to commit to going all-in with healing, but I hope that you choose to commit to yourself, your success and your happiness.

Connect with Me

I had a lovely time at the Fishtown RiverCity Festival today.  I was given the opportunity to give Reiki to several people.  I’m so grateful to be able to help people feel better!

My previous post gave you exercises that you can do to connect with your own subtle energy.  That is the beginning of accessing your body’s healing potential on your own.

I want to continue offering as much information as possible because I want people to start feeling better immediately.  More exercises and helpful information is coming, but it will be coming slowly.  These things take time.  I want to give you all time to get familiar with your energy before I add more to the equation.

If you want to learn more and continue this process, please keep following this blog.  If you sign up for the newsletter, I will send the blog posts straight to your email.  If you like me on Facebook, I will also be putting my updates there.  If you have an RSS reader, I’m sure you know what you’re doing.

Experience Your Subtle Energy

We all have the potential to experience, manipulate, and learn from our own subtle energy.  The incredible thing is that it doesn’t matter if you believe in subtle energy or not, you can still benefit from familiarizing yourself with your own.  You can think of it as accessing your higher self, a higher power, getting familiar with your subconscious or the subtle workings of your body.  Once you’ve gotten on this path, your potential to thrive becomes limitless.  It can also be a fun and exciting process, so become a scientist of your own experiences.

The term “subtle energy” is the modern label for an energy that goes by many names within several ancient traditions. In Traditional Chinese Medicine, this energy is called, “chi…, [it is called] prana in Ayurvedic teachings, [it is also known as] Paracelsus’ archaeus, Newton’s cosmic aether, Mesmer’s ‘universal fluid’ and ‘animal magnetism,’ the Odic force of Reichenback, Brunler’s biocosmic energy, and Reich’s orgone,”¹ and that’s just a partial list. The term “subtle energy” is also sometimes used in physics to mean certain kinds of energies that are very weak, but that is not the type of subtle energy that we’re talking about here.

Are you skeptical about subtle energy? Good. If you’re skeptical, that means that you’re open. I’ve been listening to William Bengston’s book, Hands On Healing, which, as far as I can tell, is only available as an audiobook.² In it, he explains that the true definition of a “skeptic” is a person who is open to all possibilities, and a “believer” is someone who is sure about something. That could mean that the person is sure that something is or that something isn’t. If you’re on the fence, you’re in good company.

If you’re a believer one way or another, I’d like you to try to be a skeptic for these exercises, even if you are a total believer in subtle energy. One thing that Bengston points out in his audiobook,² which I have also experienced myself, is this: strong and immovable beliefs retard the flow of energy. Not just beliefs against it—beliefs either way. He speculates (and I agree with his speculation) is that a strong belief means that an individual has a stake in the outcome of any situation, that stake creates anxiety, and the next thing you know you’ve just disrupted your flow of energy.

Subtle Energy Exercises

Exercise 1:

Anytime that you feel like your mind is racing, your heart is beating too fast, and you need to get focused quickly, imagine your energy in whatever way is meaningful to you, and start sending it down away from your upper body and into the spot just below your navel. If you have ever practiced martial arts, you are probably familiar with this exercise. Take a few slow deep breaths and observe your body and note any changes. Since most of us lead really busy and overwhelming lives, you will probably have plenty of opportunities to try this one out.

Exercise 2:

This one takes a little bit of time and practice, but if you keep with it, you will reap benefits!

1. Sit and relax your muscles as much as possible while remaining upright. Let your shoulders drop. Muscle tension blocks the flow of energy. If you have knotted up muscles, chances are that your subtle energy is stagnant in that area. Stay sitting up because that will help you remain alert and observant.

2. Let go of any words, stories or thoughts that are floating around in your head. This is the hard part. I like to imagine my thoughts turning into a balloon and floating up and away.

3. Once you have discarded the words, you can let out your feelings. Give yourself permission to feel whatever you are feeling without looking for reasons, justifications, or logical conclusions. Respect your emotions as entities of their own, not accessories to the material world. If you are someone who habitually holds back emotions, it may take some time to convince yourself that it is ok to let them out. Holding in emotions also tends to cause subtle energy to stagnate.

4. Identify the place in your body each emotion is stored.  Explore the quality and texture of those feelings in the context of your body.

5. Many traditions link subtle energy to the breath. You can try imagining energy flowing in and out with your breath in whatever way feels most natural to you (for example, through your skin, through the top of your head, through your heart, through your lower abdomen).  Note how that flow of energy interacts with the physical aspect of your emotion.

6. Give it time and observe. If you have never done this before, this is the beginning of you learning how to focus on and recognize your bodily sensations.

7. Once you start noticing the sensations, it helps to link them to images. You might feel a hot emotion coming out of the top of your head, or feel pressure building up in part of your body. What does it look like to you?

8. If you fall asleep or start to feel an extreme desire to sleep, then sleep (if you have no time to sleep, then get on with your day and then make plans to get more sleep later). If you continually fall asleep while doing this exercise, this is an indication that you are sleep deprived. If you keep giving yourself sleep, your body will eventually catch up, and you’ll be able to sit and observe without feeling very tired.

9. Have patience. If you’re struggling, think of it like those old stereogram posters; superficially, they look like a boring pattern, but when looked at in the right way, a new image pops out from the pattern. The first time it might take some time, but the more we see it, the easier it becomes. Pretty soon, it becomes nearly impossible not to see it. It’s kind of neat like that. It takes longer for some people, but if you keep trying, eventually, it will reveal itself to you.

You may find that a sensation that you commonly experience suddenly makes a lot of sense when it’s viewed in terms of subtle energy.  For example, when I meditate, I often get the strong sensation of something pressing on my forehead between my eyebrows. Before I had any knowledge of subtle energy, I would get annoyed thinking that something wasn’t right. It was distracting and I’d wonder, “Why must my forehead constantly make itself known?” Now that I understand and accept it as a stimulation of my third eye chakra, I have much more awareness and control over it.

There are dozens, maybe hundreds of instructional videos on youtube for either feeling or seeing subtle energy. I haven’t tried most of them, but if that interests you, give them a try and see if any of them fit or resonate with you.

Now go forth and observe yourself! You are your own best teacher.

¹Rosch, P. J. (2011, September). The Health Effects of Subtle Energies. Health and Stress, (9), 1–10.
²So, I can’t reference a page, and I don’t want to re-listen to the whole thing in order to find the exact time he says something before I can present his ideas.

Approaching Health

I study alternative healing, specifically subtle energy (more about that later).  Before I studied it, I long held an interest in alternative healing, and I’m not alone. According to the National Center for Complementary and Alternative Medicine nearly 40 percent of Americans report using complementary and alternative medicine. Whether conventional medicine acknowledges it or not, people are flocking to alternative healing.

Health is important to me. This is why I am an aspiring Reiki Master, Yoga Teacher and person with an MA in Integral Health. I want to feel good physically and mentally. I want to live a long, full and happy life. I wouldn’t be opposed to looking good, too. I want the pursuit and maintenance of my health to be easy, effective, with minimal cost and no side-effects.

I am passionate about health for everyone, not just me. I want everyone to feel good physically and mentally and live full lives, etc. That is why I started mindful mending. To me, being mindful about health is exploring all of the options the best I can.

So, what are our options? How do we approach this in the best way possible?

The world inundates us with information, opinions, advertisements and perspectives on health. There are a lot of different types of healing practices out there, alternative and conventional. Only a few alternative practices, such as chiropractic care and acupuncture, require licensure and specific standards of care.

Ok, so we have tons of options, but the problem of too much information and not enough filters to make sense of it. How do we sort through all of this to figure out what is best for our health?

For me, it’s easiest to examine something once I’ve defined it.  There are a few definitions of health, but I’ll start with the most conventional.  In conventional medicine, “health” is usually defined as “the absence of disease.” Health can be more than that, but for now, let’s stick with the goal of being disease free.

The body is designed to keep itself disease free. Most of us have noticed our antibodies spring to action against an infection.  The body is also designed to keep itself trauma free and many of us have noticed that when we break a body part it fixes itself; like our skin, the wound will crust over in order to repair the damage.  When this process is working well the body can solve a multitude of health problems.  This is awesome aspect of having a human body!  Imagine life if you had to live with every ding, scrape and illness that life has inflicted upon you.

Some of us have also noticed that sometimes that system doesn’t always work well; antibodies spring to action when there is no infection. Sometimes wounds heal slowly or we feel tired and lethargic. Sometimes we look and feel crappy because our bodies can’t seem to keep up with its regular maintenance. We get run-down, unhappy, and susceptible to disease.  When this happens, we are living with every ding, scrape and illness that life has inflicted upon us.

When healing stalls in the body, it is either because the body’s healing process has been compromised or there is a physical obstacle standing in the way. The various forms of healing (conventional medicine included) are usually designed to either revive or stimulate the body’s healing process or remove the thing that’s preventing the healing process from occurring in the first place.

There are a lot of different ways to foster healing and understanding where it all fits could help you figure out how you want to approach your own healing.

This is how I define the different ways we currently foster healing:

  • Allopathic medicine (the theoretical basis of most conventional medicine), treats illness by compartmentalizing the body. The treatments are often mechanistic in nature and localized to a particular body part or process. Removing diseased organs, replacing organs and antibiotics are based on this perspective. According to Dr. Andrew Weil’s book, Health and Healing, treatments using blood-letting and purging eventually led to what is considered to be allopathic medicine.1  It was originally defined as a practice that treated a disease by administering its perceived opposite, for example, prescribing antihypertensive drugs for high blood pressure.2
  • Homeopathic doctors treat illness by administering a diluted version of a substance that would replicate the patient’s symptoms under normal circumstances.  Allergy shots are based on this theory, and it could be argued that vaccinations are homeopathic in nature. Samuel Hahnemann (of Hahnemann University Hospital, in Philadelphia) was a homeopathic doctor and homeopathy has a surprisingly once-conventional place in American medical history.3  According to Weil, this form of healing was marginalized mostly for political reasons.4 Although Hahnemann is often credited with inventing homeopathic medicine, Paracelsus (circa 1490-1541) wrote about the use of homeopathy in his own practice and by healers who pre-dated himself.5
  • Traditional or Shamanic healing techniques vary widely; herbs, rituals, intuition, physical interventions, subtle energy and spiritual teachings are used to foster healing in the body.  All cultures have a history of some form of traditional or shamanic healing.  One of the most popular today is traditional Eastern medicine.  It’s emphasis is on keeping the subtle energetic body balanced in order to prevent illness before it occurs or re-balancing subtle energy to foster healing. The body is not compartmentalized, but all symptoms are weighed to identify a pattern of imbalance. In Traditional Chinese Medicine, the physical condition of skin, tongue, nails, pulse, etc. and other factors, such as, emotional states, habits, environment, etc. are taken into consideration. Acupuncture and Reiki are examples of subtle energetic healing.

Weil has a much longer list and goes into a lot more detail about the various methods and the history of medicine in the US. He’s also personally tried a lot of them, so it’s an interesting read.

When it comes to treating disease or trauma, conventional medicine has historically been remarkably effective, so why is there so much use of alternative forms of healing?

I think there are two reasons.  The first, people are dissatisfied with the current limitations of conventional medicine.  The second is that people are not looking to merely be disease-free, but to thrive.

I am not going to comment on the limitations of conventional medicine here, but I am going to comment on the desire to thrive.  We want to be extra strong to prevent future injury and disease. We want to feel extra good and have a lust for life. We want all aspects of self—psychological, spiritual, directional, emotional, relationships—to grow and move forward. Thriving creates a fuller, deeper and happier existence.

Can alternative medicine help us thrive beyond the absence of disease?  What are your thoughts on healing, thriving and conventional versus alternative health care?  How do you define health?  Do you feel as though you are thriving?

1Weil, Andrew, Health and Healing: The Philosophy of Integrative Medicine (Houghton Mifflin Harcourt, 2004) p. 13.
2Weil, p. 17.
3Weil, p. 12.
4Weil, p. 22.
5Hall, Manly P, and Paracelsus, Paracelsus, His Mystical and Medical Philosophy (Los Angeles: Philosophical Research Society, 1980).